Monday, February 2, 2009

A Most Wonderful Gift!

So for about the past 2 hours I've been trying to find the motivation to listen to a two hour long lecture on cardiac output, and I've discovered that in the time I've wasted, I could be done and fast asleep (wow, do I sound like my mother or what). So, instead of being getting that off my mind, I figured I'd at least do something. I've actually been doing significantly better this semester with self discipline and just being intentional with my time. My schedule is so much more time consuming this semester, but it's been so good for me. It definitely keeps me on top of things...except for lectures on cardiac output. :) 
Well last night, I was reading part of Let Me Be a Woman by Elisabeth Elliot which is a collection of letters that she wrote to her daughter upon the event of her engagement. So often I feel ridiculous thinking about singleness and marriage and stuff, but honestly, when you go to a college like Grace, few other things occupy your mind. Ha, just kidding...kind of... But anyway, there was this section that absolutely just struck my heart:

"But having now spent more than 41 years single, I have learned that it is indeed a gift. Not one I would choose. Not one many women would choose. But we do not choose gifts, remember? We are given them by a divine Giver who knows the end from the beginning, and wants above all else to give us the gift of Himself. It is within the sphere of the circumstances He chooses for us-single, married, widowed-that we receive Him. It is there and nowhere else that He makes Himself known to us. It is there we are allowed to serve Him..."

I've always been thankful for my singleness, because I have the bad habit of thinking that relationships hinder you from growing in your relationships with others (friends, family, God etc), but rarely have I given thanks for it because it is where Jesus has allowed me to serve Him. I also have the bad habit of living in the past and future, wishing I could have gone back and done things differently, and wishing I was at a point that has yet to come. As I learn to serve my Jesus where I am both physically and emotionally, my earnest prayer for all my single friends is that you would do the same. Look at singleness as a wonderful gift, as such a rich opportunity to spend so much time growing in a whole new level with Christ, a place where you are not bound to anything else but your service to Him! :)